Depression Sucks

I cannot believe January is almost over! This month just flew by. Things have been normal but I have been dealing with a bout of depression. My weight (still haven’t lost those 10 pounds) isn’t helping my depression and I just feel blah. And the thing is, I really don’t have anything major to be depressed about. The past problems (those of you who know, know what I am talking about) still creep up every now and then but they are not the main reason why I feel depressed. And I really cannot pin point the cause of the depression. I just don’t feel very happy. I have a few books I wanted to read (no ereaders, I like the feel and smell of real books) but right now I just don’t feel like reading them. I also don’t feel like playing games (WoW or on the 360) and when I’m not working, cooking or cleaning, I just want to sit and watch mind numbing tv. It doesn’t help that my mind doubts everything. Thankfully, my stress level is not up (it has been way down since moving away from the stress inducer) so I don’t have to deal with that.